Friday, April 9, 2010


January 25, 1995

Dear Bethany,
Hi. How's life? Boy for me its not too great. I mean its not bad at all but I must be losing it. Seriously! Someone can say anything at all and I'll burst into tears. For instance, today Mom told me that Diana has a more mature face than I do. Then I had a tantrum. I mean I was literally acting like a three year old. I guess I can kinda understand why I was upset. I mean think about it, I always have known how small I am but I thought my mature face and features made up for it. Then my mom tells my Diana has a more mature face than mine! I guess it just hurt.

Also, Kristen started crying about how much she wants Reese. She really likes him a lot, I can tell. She gets so upset. Also I discovered how competitive she is. She was telling me how she HAS to be on top or she gets upset.

Well, gotta go!

This is another one of those entries I had to reallllly force myself to put up. Something about the way I talk about my "mature face and features" realllly makes me want to hang myself. And of course it helps that I know what I look like at the time I wrote this. Braces. Huge Oversized Ears. Freckles all over my nose. Teeny Tiny.
And all I want is some... what? weathered, tough looking face? What does a "mature face" mean at age 11? Mature BODY I'd understand... but face? I mean, we're not even teenagers yet. As evidenced by the fact I THREW A TANTRUM. And then actually tried to justify my tantrum's validity. My poor mother.

And this ongoing saga with Kristen... I'm so involved. Which actually sounds like current-day Corey. Too bad Kristen's so competitive. When I obviously was so... generous... and... modest.

Also, when do i break the habit of talking to "Bethany" as if she is a person.... I literally ask her "how's life?". As if she is off doing something during the times I am not, you know, writing to her. Was a schizo? Do i have ISSUES?


  1. Thank god our diaries didn't have lives. If they did, they'd be like, "Sweet Christ, SHUT UP about your mature face already! And Joe McIntyre is NEVER GOING TO MARRY YOU!" (That last part was directed at me.)

  2. I used to ask my diary how it was going too. Clearly we were not sane children!

  3. I also agree that it is weird that you talk to your diary. and I had what my best friend called my "grown up smile" that i whipped out for pictures. she used to get so pissed off about it. we were all crazy, its impossible not to be right before, during and after puberty.